Thursday, May 20, 2010

Disconnected

That's how I'm feeling right now. I want so desperately to feel connected to something...anything! I've fallen out of touch with my blog (and thus the 8 people who "follow" it). I'm in the throes of finishing grad school (yippee!!) but am exhausted with the workload. There are so many changes going on in my life that I feel apart from it...

Does that make any sense at all?

I usually like to post things are happy or positive or exciting, but that just isn't me right now. I'm in a place that feels dark, but not necessarily scary. I think that maybe I'm just in a transition where I'm not sure where to go from here. Work has been really stressful lately in terms of the kids getting antsy for their summer vacation (and the teachers too!). Testing is about to start which means training and odd school hours and shifts and duty schedules and it all makes me want to scream! I am so on board with the things my colleague writes over at Box of Chocolates (see the blogroll and check it out). Sometimes I really envy her commitment to writing on her blog and sharing what's going on with work and life and such.

I think I'm getting a glimpse of a precious moment in my life where I can slow down and reflect on what has gone on in the last few years of my marriage and career. Let's hope this time is fruitful and prompts me to write more and be more transparent.

2 comments:

Makia said...

And I'm getting a glimpse of a lovely lady who just might be 'antsy' in her own way about slowing down. :) You've been so busy and now you're getting a look at all you've accomplished...enjoy it!!!

Stephanie McCabe said...

lindsay,

if you're not stressed, you're not growing! so look around at all you have accomplished and how great your family is...you're a super teacher and do everything you can to help your students learn. but don't be afraid to express your "bad" days--if you don't, it's easier to stay stuck!!

and keep writing!!!

;)
stephanie